The Year of the Fire Monkey, 2016, could not be more on point: Four friends have died, all unexpectedly and some tragically. I can almost hear a lone trumpet playing that old military death knell, “Taps” resonating in the back of my mind: a stirring and often overwhelming call to action for me who remains, conscious and above ground. It is really hard […]
What does it mean to trust someone? Brené Brown reveals the anatomy of trust and why it all starts with the small, everyday moments.
I recently attended an eight hour seminar on self sabotage: an uncomfortable and unconscious topic. At first I didn’t want to go. As a seeker, I’ve become well acquainted with the concept. But I’d never truly known its nature, preferring to leave it as a shadowy, amorphous idea, (not an active part of me for which I’d then have to claim responsibility). Then I remembered: keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will […]
“We are all gardenias…there is an inner fragility that we all have as human beings. And as actors, we must have…softness, delicateness; we are sensitive. We have toughness and strength, but we have to be receptive. And that word ‘vulnerable’ (which I sort of hate) but it’s so important, because it’s that softness—that humanness—that when […]
A reminder that as men, we have the power to build each other up, or tear each other apart.
Life can change in a flash. So while you still have it, make sure you take the time to really appreciate what you have. We often don’t think about the things we have until they’re gone. Health. Money. Loved ones. Family. Work. If you’re young, you might think your parents are going to be around […]
You’ve heard about “affirmations” since the dawn of the Stuart Smalley. They’re those “I statements” that go something like this: I am grateful. I am lovable. I am open. Proponents of affirmations say—without reservation—that they work, releasing you from years of pent-up fear, pain, and shame. But is there any real science to back this up? The […]
I started making seagull stencils after seeing a painting by Henri Matisse. A friend pointed out that the gulls were strikingly similar to my own realizations regarding love and detachment. As I continued to explore the meaning of gulls, I was surprised to find out that in Native spirituality, seagulls represent integrity, purity, and opportunity. Reading further, I […]
PINK performs the song “I Don’t Believe You” on possibly my favorite episode of the Oprah Winfrey Show. The singer, one of the best-selling artists of all time, has sold more than 40 million albums worldwide, talks candidly about her marriage to Carey Hart, who she met at the X Games in 2001. During their long separation in 2008, the couple sought marriage counseling in hopes […]
I am grateful for the surgeons who aren’t assholes. I am grateful for Taxol and Carboplatin and painkillers and radiation and CA-125 markers and carrot juice. For clean windows and Tylenol and singing penguins. For poppies and Subway and walks around the neighborhood. For candles finally lit, for losing our expectations. For flat rate boxes […]
This is one of my favorite poems on love. I wanted to share it with you as this is my wish for you today as lovers and seekers of love celebrate Valentine’s Day.
One of the reasons I love Florence Welch—the fiery ginger lead singer of “Florence and the Machine” — is because she covers songs by African American artists (Beyonce, Rihanna, & Drake) with dutiful precision, still somehow rendering them all her own. Last year she surprised local listeners by performing Beyonce’s “Halo” live on the radio, which I blended with Beyonce’s original. Here is my latest remix — the bittersweet “Take Care” written & performed by Drake, and joined by Florence and Rihanna.
I trained to be an opera singer in college, even auditioning for the Metropolitan Opera in New York. While I haven’t sung much lately, earlier this year I cut a country track, “Soulmate” as a Valentine’s Day gift to a friend. Songs are like relationships: they’re never perfect or finished, people come into our lives and invariably, they also leave us. What I know for sure is that I’ll never find another soul mate. That space in my heart will always belong to my friend. To quote a popular song, “Yes I will learn to love again, though my heart is breaking I will love again / stronger than before.”
I’m proud of how this beautiful recording turned out. You may be reading this right now and already have a soul mate. Or you may have lost yours to death. Maybe you’re holding out hope for a soul mate. So I dedicate this song a “Soulfull Christmas” this song’s for you, wherever you are. Peace. Love. Lunges, Sam
Go placidly amid the noise and haste and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery.But let this not blind you to what virtue there is, many persons strive for high ideals and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe; no less than the trees and the stars, you have a right to be here. And whether or not it’s clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive God to be; and whatever your labours and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it’s still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
Last weekend I took part in a photography project by Wayne Belger, an acclaimed fine arts photographer who designs (and builds) his own intricate pinhole cameras, set with relics which enhance the exploration of his subjects. Wayne is photographing HIV+ people for his “Untouchable” project, designed as a photographic study and exploration of people with HIV/AIDS. His camera pumps HIV+ blood across the pinhole through two thin sheets of acrylic, with the blood acting as a filter.
“My grandmother, she started walking five miles a day when she was 60. She’s 97 today and we don’t know where the hell she is.” ~Ellen Degeneres My grandma, “Ama” turned 80 years old today. Having a new octogenarian in the family, I’ve studied her carefully, trying to figure out some of her secrets to […]
A couple weeks back, I announced that I planned on deleting my Facebook profile. A few people asked why, so here’s my response. I’ve had a difficult time deciding who to “be” on Facebook. For example: do I accept friend requests from my clients? How much do I want my professional and personal life to […]
And thanks for four great years.
I took this photo in the last hour of my visit to Utah to see my mom 0n Mother’s Day. She really liked this picture. That made me smile.”
Cowboy Turns 41 from Sam Page on Vimeo.
GROWING UP, I used to pretend that my red Radio Flyer was my very own car. I’d take imaginary trips to see my grandmother in southern Utah, holding an invisible steering wheel as I guided the “car” along each bend in the road. When I arrived at her house, I never wanted to leave. Some […]
My mother is not well, and I am worried about her. She is due for a pretty major operation tomorrow, St. Patrick’s Day, which is also my grandmother’s 79th birthday. My mom and I spoke on the phone yesterday for about an hour, and it was one of the most difficult conversations we’ve had, probably […]
Let unconquerable gladness dwell.” -Max & Churchill AFTER WEEKS OF APARTMENT HUNTING, and finding a charming new abode for Bronson’s mom in West Hollywood proper, we’ve started de-cluttering and packing in preparation for Move #1, which will occur in 27 days. (Bronson’s blogged about the foreclosure and what it means for us). Moving is the […]